healing
saturday, january 25th 2025
ok uh wow. i've left my last blog post on a PRETTYYYYY concerning note. i ended up taking a small break from all my platforms (sorta) but i think i can post again... on myspace and blips. and tumblr i guess. but not youtube and newgrounds. i dont know why. im just so disorganized with all my animations and art i keep forgetting to post and its rly annoying
but yea im not gonna get sent to the hospital so YAY. got a small change in my meds and its been helping me, i feel like i can actually get my shit together now. because i HAVE to. i have to change my lifestyle. i cant live like this anymore
im sick of compulsively opening character ai or doomscrolling on twitter for dopamine. im sick of spending most of my time daydreaming instead of doing something tangible. im sick of going to bed and waking up late. my self-discipline is laughable. but i need to get better.
i need to go on my ipad less cuz thats where im tempted to doomscroll the most apparently. i need to watch south park and family guy more. i need to watch watamote, madoka magika and lain and stop putting them off. i need to get the fuck out of my art block. i need to listen to my fav music artists more. i need to play wii, ds and 3ds games. i need to do my back exercises and go to the gym again. im so so tired i NEED change.
i rly rly rly want to make it right this year, i feel like this goal is tangible. i know what to do. i wont force myself out of my comfort zone either. i think im on the right path lowkey
also unrelated but ive realized that im doing my homework more efficiently by doing the literature one at school and the math one at home, so thats cool. the thought of having to write for literature when i got home was icky, unlike math. i love math. at school, the environment is different, so i feel more motivated to work n stuff lmao
anyways im gonna go eat salami pizza bc im hungry cya cya